6 to 6~mon to fri

6 a.m : Alarm rings up.. and.. like every morning i used to put it on snooze....
6:05 a.m. : The daily wake up reminder starts buzzing.. as i knw ..only 1 alarm is nt enough to get me up on time. In between.. the alarm rings up 1nce again..
6:10  a.m : Finally i wakeup.. n get out of bed.. heading straight towards the almirah.. for further proceedings..(also straight away Puttin the bucket in the bathroom.. so dat no one else occupies it..)
7 a.m. : Got ready.. wid a cool bath..heading my way towards the college gate.. to bring the newspaper...otherwise the guard comes n drops it in the dining hall...frm where evrbdy takes it to their room.. n never return back..so i found a better option.. to bring it to my own room before it cd go into other's hands...
7:30 a.m. : Newspaper half read/// pick up the plate.. n move to dining hall.. to have breakfast..
7:50 a.m. : M back.. n in the mean time.. my room mates wake up.. n run up for toilet n bath.. Here i have a cool time.. sittng wid my news paper...or Notes Copy,,,of the concernd practical.. gr8 timepass.
8:30 a.m. : Dot time on the clock.. leave evrythn.. pick up the dress,,, of the practical..n get ready(as i have diffrent Formal dress provided by the clg for evry day)
8:50 a.m. :  Room locked.......left the hostel.....move towards college.. abt nly 100 mtrs away..
9 a.m. : Ahhhh!!!!! practical begins.. n nxt four hours.. till 1 p.m. pass by ..uhmm. easily.!!
2 p.m. : Theory classes begins..... pheeewwwww!!!  bt b/w 1 & 2 p.m.. i had my lunch.. made by my IInd yrs..
5 p.m. : Huff!!! relieved,,,,!! atlast!! frm ths hectic schedule!!bt goin back to hostel adds more to the fatigue :(
Goin bak.. gettin into a comfortable outfit.. rushing to take tea..cuz limited quantity is dere.. n dn chillix at terrace/ground..
7:25 p.m. : The reminder rings up for "Dinner"... so dat no matter where i am.. i'll go bak ..pick up the plate. n move to the dining hall.. to form a line for the dinner.. staring at 7.30...    ds was some xcptional thng.. the reminder fr dinner,,, cuz i dnt like to stand bak in line..so being the frst in line..is the best possible solution!!
8 p.m. : Bak to room aftr the dinner,,, n dn..either earphones go into my ears,,or buks in my hand,, according to the nxt day's scedule
9.30 p.m. : the Hostel gate Closed!!..n dn.. u r inside the hostel premises..packed..jailed!!
Dn,,the time passes. either wid buks.. or wid frnds in ohtr rums.. or most often on the terrace.. where we used to sit n discuss so many thngs.. hmmmm.. nice time at the terrace.. counting days remaining till 4th december,, da day wn we left chennai.. to be bak to our native places...
Midnite : sometimes...1 or 2 a.m.   ..wn i slept.. aftr preparin up fr the nxt day...
huh!! the day ends.. n begins up again at 6 in the morining.. ...
Dis was my life,,, frm Mon to fri,, n on sat n sundayss,,,didnt ever realisd dat 2 holidays have passed.. to begin a new week.. & coming closer to 4th december!!

Jao naaa......

well...well.. ds iz .. abt a sng.... "jao naa" by ASTITVA.. Ramjas's Rock Band..!!
so.. it was my scnd chance to be there in a live band performance ..the frst one being ..again.. ramjas's fest..Lazy River. & Half Step Down.!! .. n i njoyed it.. bt didnt knw wat else was yet to come the nxt day.. Astitva...& Strings.. it was jst awesome...!!!
I stood dere in the front...wid my frnzz.. waitin fr the bands to perform..as they tuk so mch f time fr dere settings n all.. bt jst wn Astitva started.. n its lead singer Zamaan.. took off wid "tu hi bata"... it was jst awesome..so soothing.. so soft... n dn.. no body cud stop dat rockin evening..xcpt 1 fu*kin guy..abt whum i'll tell u later..
so.. Astitva was jst amazing.. zamaan also dedicated 1 song..dooba dooba rehta hun" to his "some1 special"(i wish if i wud have some voice.. dn cud have imprssd a grl..ATLEAST in Chennai..bt no prob... i knw..m a gr8 Bathroom singer,,,for atleast being somthin dan nothn) . n salman..on the guitar,,,at times played it wid his Colgate tooth.. n 1 aftr another.. "pyaar ho gaya"..."JAO NAA"... whch was jusss ultimate!!. god!! m still listnin to dat sng.. lyrics.. so nice.. music.. top class. n all above.. zamaan's voice.!!
& today early morning .. i searchd fr sngs.. their live band performances on youtube.. convrted into audio.. n m still listnin to it.. yaar amazin sngs....
den.. wasnt it enough?? dat STRINGS came up to perform nxt.... n dat too was jst faadu.. most of nythn.. i likd 1 thng.. dat band.. whose songs i dwnloded it a year bak..n at times lstnd dm in chennai also is performing live.. in frnt of me..
Koi ane wala he.. Anjaane kyu.. Hua main deewana.. dey were on song!! untill dat fuc*er threw stones twice on stage... 20-25 min were wastd js like dat..
n dn we had to leave.. aftr a memorable evening.. dats fr sure.. i'll go bak wid dese memories.. to remember dese days.... D.U. is really funn...

deres no 1 lik u...

hie... m bak to my blog... to delhi.. among frnds. family.. ~my life.
i dunn knw.. frm where to start.. wat to say... aftr so long... huh!! i missed u all a lot!! really!!

my 1st semester was gud... evrythn had gone right...earned so mch bt.. i cudnt find "frnds" dere... yesterday i was talkin to akhl bout ds,,, hw was life dere.. frnds... whch i hardly have 1 or 2.. seriously!! ppl r crap dere,, before goin.. i knew dat i wont fnd som1 like u all.. in b/w whom i cud say nythn... mix up easily.. bt didnt knew dat i wud find a drought.. i have 1~2 frnds.. to whom i cud share thngs.. thoughts// rest r juss timepass.. evrytime dre fr bak bitchin... bak stabbin!! wnevr som thng lik ds happnd.i just thought dat did somthng like dis evr happnd here b/w us???... dat momnt i missd u all..a lot.. bt had no othr option to stay calm n be dere,,,more dan 2000 km away frm u all...
being bak to delhi is awesome.. i knew dat i still have som frnds here.. wid whom i'll have a gr8 time...
bt dere,,,, u knw ppl cant be calld frnds,,, dey r jealous of nybdy's success.. brought a smile on face wn needed hlp.. othrwise,, who r u??,,,, 1 aftr anothr.. n anothr. i got to see hw is evry bdy.. n dn have just 2 "frnds" dre wid whom i sit n chat... othrs r just timepass... huh!! da only conclusion i made .. was dat deres no 1 lik u all.. i missd u a lottt!!......

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So.. its that time wen all the shopin n milna-milana has begun.. the countdown has started.. few days left .. for wat 'll be my first away from home trip--straight away for 5 months.. or may be 11.. the packin has begun ...preparations are on for my departure... & in all dis fussy.. i've got time for.. ME-MYSELF .. somthings dat matter to me.. !!
If u remember the movie DASVIDANYA,,, & wat vinay pathak did... he prepared a list of things he wanted to do.. before leavin ds world..wid 3 months left.
after gettin inspired from him.. i also made a list of thngs.. som days bak wen it was xactly 3 weeks time frm 14th july ... though m nt goin forever.. 'll be bak widin few months,..,, bt yes!! dere r somthngs whch i desire.. whch i wanna do.. before leavin "meri dilli" ...
I kept it personal uptil nw bt cam up wid the idea of tellin u ds... so my list begins here..(in random order)
1.Aneesh's macroni... heard mch abt it.. n wanna finish of the suspnse!! ..so be prepared on 14th's morning.. m comin ///

2.Moong ki daal ka Halwa.. another dish.. dis tym by sagar... had a bite once in skl.. & it was yumm.. so before my HM begins.. let me taste urs dish... again on 14th july~~~

3.Paranthe.. nw dese r by mohit's mother... she prepares yum paranthas,,, 've espicially asked her to prepare some n pack dem for my train journey.. seriously!!!

so all the food stuff ends here....

4.Take a Bath at Bangla Sahib... dis means a lot to me.. wenevr i feel dipressd.. or m idle.. i jst go dere n spend my time sitting near the pond. bt dis tym... i'll go for a special purpose. As u must have seen in Rang de basanti... hw da guys njoyd being in dere... i hav ds wish.. of taking a bath dere... its the nly place wch i worship///

5. Shreya's Party.. dis must be surprisin to u.. bt is a simple one.. dis grl is 3-4 yrs younger to me... n for som reason.. i've to gv her my "farewell" party.. its a challnge to sombody!!!

6. Pyar ke Pal.. so dis one is mch hyped.. suspnse thng.. i've to post dis blog before goin.. i made it a month bak.. n am waitin for 14th to show it to evry1 n post it on the blog... wat i thnk is "my farewell blog"

7.NFS Most Wanted,,,, dis one is a racing game.. classik!! got it installed some days bak!! n have challngd myslf of completin it before 14th july... m half way done..

8.Hugs :) .. bit centi... before leavin ,, i'll hug evry1 of u.. it hasnt happnd before... as never felt of it.. bt nw realisng the importance of evry1 of u .. or may be wud realise mch more aftr 14th :(

9. Fifa 07.. dis iz bout beatin shubham in a game of fifa. I still remember hw i lost 0-2 .. at my home ground.. it was a big hit to my championship tag... n want a revenge!!! ds time on his home ground!!! ...

10.... i challenge my slf!!! ... i'm never gonna forget u:
Aneesh Arpit Akhil Charu Richa Sagar Mohit Shubham.... by bye guysss tak care!! c u in decmbr!!!!

ρуαя кє ραℓ ~ My farewell blog

Comin 2 u... 14th july
the "farewell blog"

му נσυяηєу- ƒяσм 6 тσ 70

yuhooooo!!!!!!! atlast!! the results are out!! i've managed to score well...nt me nly....bt all my frnds.. some in 90ies..n some like me..hanging around 80ies..!! bt! after all those blogs that we wrote on our studies..wats goin..hw it is a burden.. the end result has been exremly gud.!! n i thnk deserving also!!(our teachrs claimed it)
bt,,,,deres somthing that i've been waiting for ..jst one thng.. n dats my math's score... 70(though nt so gud in frnt of anna's& bagga's 95..akhl's 93 dhol's 94..ilu n dheela also wid jst touchin 90) well dese r jst awesom no.s! bt dis 70 is more special to me.. as i say it" my journey- from 6 to 70"
u all knw wat was my half yearly's score...ughhh 6 out of hundred!!! man!! u cant achieve this honour of brilliance.. u won't!! bt i've dis special credit to my name!! n also..an over 1000% of improvement frm hlf-yrls to boards!! jst too gud!!
i still remember dat day wn the answer booklet was handed over to me by sidhant.. n i was in a state of shock..,,nt for dis reslt..bt i had thought of gettin 15-20.(still 15 isnt gud too) bt i was shocked to see a single figure score!!...bt jst the frst day...nly dat day i was upset..den bak to my old happy days.. also, i rememnr dat "golden line" of kansal mam(which she copied from nike)..she called me up..to her desk & jst said"sarthak, u can do it".. damn!! wat a fukk line bt i still laughed(at my condition,,,seeing that she is sayin dis to the one dat scored 6)
& den..before any one cud comment abt it..i made a joke of it!! dn..my 6 no.s were like nothin! so popular among teachrs too...frnds too! all makin a fun of it ---all credit goes to me..gettin 6 isnt easy :) dere were so many stories made out of it..so mch of talks..dey became so popular dat still evryone rememnrs it!!
& dn...i gave "nike" comebak!! gettin 21 out f 25 in u।t।(though i got 6 again in the nxt one) bt॥mam wud be very happy to see॥dat i mangd to pass in prebrd(27)॥along wid hlf yrls(6) ...i.e. 27+6=33 i have thrown away all the buks....xam papers..que papers.. bt have kept dis answer sheet like a tresure!! cuz its really special. u ppl may score awesom marks..bt never ever u will come up wid 6 out f 100. ahhhaaaa!!! a gr8 achievemt dat m really proud of!!
n mind it!! it wasnt jst badluk dat i scord such marks..bt really i didnt knw nythin.. & to start frm dere..n scorin 70 in boards.. m givin a big patt on my bak!! the one whu scored 3..den...has scord 57 nw.. n othr1 gettn 9 den.. has got 50 nw!! also those who have been gettin more dan me all the year.. i've crossd dm too!! srry if u r 1 of dose.. bt its my moment.. 6-70!!! never easy!! studyn evrythn in 4 mnths..
so atlast being a bit serioius.. thnxs guys.. nt gonna mention any spl name.. bt evry dear frnd of mine.. dis 64 marks gain woundt have been posible widout u...whether u made a fun of it..gave me moral support..or taught me some lessons.. thnxs to u...really!!! thnxs a lot!!!
:) yipieeeeeeeeeee :)

WAT A DREAM

M searching the happiness confided in me,

M wandering here n there in this lonely street

M walking alone in the city of rome

M looking here n there n eating a bitter sweet

I c the light in ma way

Out of darkness there comes a ray

Its full of hope

Something is there which separates it from the rest

M walking 2wards it

Now the whole street is lit

it gives me joy

takes me away from grief

it astonishes me so much

i cant explain in brief

it attracts me

i cant move away

m spellbound

n this indeed is strong ray

i can feel the passion inside me

which was in its soundest sleep

i can feel love

n i can feel the fire

m free to fly

i can do watever i desire

i keep walking and walkin

till i reach the corner

i feel the chill inside me

but the place is getting warmer

the ray now becomes blinding light

i c a pole n m holding it tight

m afraid a bit

bt m very curious

wats its source

why is it looking so furious

i take a few more steps

n suddenly the silence breaks

i hear a heavenly voice

i think its a man reaching me in disguise

no its not a man

its some1 very powerfull

with features so rare

i think its d almighty

who came to earth to remove all d despair

bt m wrong again i guess

still cant figure wat is it n y is it different from rest

i hear the voice again, this tym it is polite

He tells me softly

that He is THE ALMIGHTY

i brust out f nowhere " I ws right"

HE came to me slowly

now the light is a bit dim

bt still it has the energy

n the determination stored within

He takes ma hand

make me c the starry sky

tells me the truths f lyf

n lovingly waves goodbye

i feel on the top of the world

the cloud 9 doesnt seem so high

its me reachng beyond the horizon

beyond the evry cry

i am laughing m happy

i can c the flowers bloom

i can take in the aroma

i feel as if i reachd the world of droon

then somebody calls ma name

bt i dont want 2 respond

i m 2 busy in ma world

the world of flowers blossoming by the pond

m shaken

m awake

i realise it was a dream

i m shaken hard ds tym

i m horrified n let out a scream

its ma mum standing by the bed

asking me to wake up

the moment becomes hilarious suddenly

all the excitement is shed

the dream ws so real

it let ma mind drool

wen i woke up i had a flower in ma hand

i ws now loosing ma cool

i wonder if GOD really exists

i m wondring without a clue

i look at the flower

i think m not really a fool

i dnt knw it ws real or halocination

bt it has made ma day now

its jst like rejuvanation

n m letting ma thts grow.........

α яαу σƒ нσρє... ιѕ ωнαт тнєу σηℓу ωαηт

yesterday i realisd somethin....  somthin dat has been always in my mind bt saw an example also...   

i was wid my friend ...licking a "chuski"  in a silent street ...only 3 children playing cricket..    rest  it was silent n empty as if a cufue has been enforced.  so i had nothin bt to look around.. observing the place...   suddenly my eyes went up to the balcony of the house under which that chuski wala was standing. i saw somthin which i had nly visualisd through some chapters of my textbooks. a mothr & her son.. wid their heads out of the window,,, looking at the sky,,..   uhmm it wasnt a balcony.. bt a window only.      at first i didnt realise what has hppnd...or y r they staring at the sky,, basicaly the oppost side of the sunset.(it was evening time)  

they were looking for a ray of hope.. the son's father passed away.. they were in tension.. worry..  the mother being a quiet figure...n thinking  who is going to earn fr the family.. who is goin to fill the place of the head of the family... who is goin to give support to dem.   the son's face was like.. as if he is pleadin to god to give bak..what they have lost.    his mother,, looked so worried.  their eyes were saying it all. i couldnt stop looking at them..  by the time... my "chuski'' melted... my friend was also buzy watching the crickt match n in his "chuski''.  i looked down.. wondered how cud i help dem.. as it was so desheartning to see them like dis.   all these thoughts came to my mind while my head was down.   but when my eyes again lookd up.. the window was closed.  they both wernt there. still.. i cannot forgt that sight,, when they were staring up the sky like anythng.

One thing struck my mind.. that why were they looking at the opposite side of the sunset,,, ....no it wasnt like dat only..  their xpresions said it all..   so i went bak home n climbed up the terrace to find a solution. & i found it...  i saw that the rays of light wnt opposte side of the sunset..    dat was wat they were looking for,.. a ray of hope.  they didnt look at the sunset..with their sun,, already been set. they wouldnt have afforded to see the similiar sight again..   

i still have a hangover of that incidence.   i feel that we r so gifted that we don't have any dificulties in life.(touchwood)   life is goin smooth   .. its them who face the real disaster in life.  we r so fortunate..  n i thank god for dis.. bt cant fight wid him for what he does to others....   hop u get it!!

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uhmmm.... yes... she was a lost freind..& certainly someone whom i remember from class 2nd after we parted.

so this story is about sn_ha, she was wid me till class 2nd. so jst 3 years togethor ...k.g., Ist class., IInd class.(nursery too, bt we were too small to knw each other den). bt bt...still i couldnt forgt her. theres a special reson bhind it. i did my first ever stage performance wid her. we danced in pairs infront of a thousand(may be less) ppl(though there were many othr pairs too).

 so, i have our pic...n so far... dat pic didnt let me forgt her. morevor my cousins are also responsible for it.    sare ke sare mujhe chedte the...like .. sarthak..whus dis sn_haaaaaaa??????   u can imagine the long tone.!! n hw i used to rply??? blush!!  n in such a manner as if m gonna be hers' nly.  huh!!! ....childhood's cute memories.....    

she was very fair n gud lukin...par abhi bhi hai...bt u can understand the child age cuteness.  many of my frnds were after her,,,some used to tell me.. "oe oe,, aj wo kitna sundar sa khana lekar aai he"  huh!! my god..dey used to appreciate dat too(whch was made by her mothr). n me...  u cant evn imagine wat i usd to do...  i usd to run to playground n tell my frnds(who were aftr them) that" oe oe...dekko, wo aa gai.. chal chal nai to mam aa jaengi"    ... i knw iknw  u mst have thought that main kitna bada chu.... tha!!   bt...    ab tha to tha!!!    leave it!!

  ye sab to use bhi nai pata hoga...    bt it really feel nice wn u get to knw a frnd..  n dat too like her.. i mean "special"(hehe)   aftr so many yrs.. (wid special thnxs to vasudha,,who told me abt her)   she lives at the bakside of my house..n so far.. for so many years.. we didnt meet..  n after 10 or 12 yrs.. i came to knw dis.  &  still we havnt met.  bt we hav seen each other,,,  i, stnding on my balcony,, n she, waving her hand frm the car.

bas... at the end.. she is my "lost frnd"..  so u all keep tryin to find somone ..who u remembr..  n find ur lost frnd...   nw pls.. dont turnon ur phone buk to search ...(especially aneesh..he he"")

Pain is Inevitable.. Suffering is Optional

here i am wd ma first blog n i dont hw 2 start bt... here i go.... Life... a journey wd hell lot of ups n downs(though v all jst luk towards d downs bt.. nvr mind_)... ma life jst like of any other gurl in d world had started showng me d downs a few days back..... m actually happy go lucky kinda person bt when life takes d responsibility 2 destroy u u cant help it.... bohot din tak i was lyk 'kisi se bat ni karni' 'evry single person is selfish' bla bla kinda theories par ji rai thi.....n kch din rone pitne k bad now m realising wat ma bro once said to me "Pain Is Inevitable bt Suffering is Optional".... i was hurt badly.... bt then it was me who was accepting the pain whch was gifted 2 me by d pepl i dont care or dose dont care for me( i know thoda babaji k updesh ki tarah lag ra h sory if u geting bored u can leave it here only bt me to adat se pareshan hu .....bohot pakaungi).... aisi kai saari ulti sidhi baten sochne k bad i thot f leavng ma worries into ma secret (n of course imaginary) treasure box where i hav lept all ma sweet n bitter memories f the people i once cared.... i realised kabi kabi hume un insaano ki jagah unke sath spend kiye ho time se pyar ho jata h....sometimes the sweet moments make our life beautiful not people coz people may change bt d memories are treasured in ur heart......4evr(unless n untill u go under memory loss)........and after thnkng ths way, all the stupid thngs whch once i thot were killing me, seemed just nightmares... after evry dreaded thot was thot,after evry single tear f ma eye ws droppd, i jst tuk a deep breath lukd 2wards ma inner self.. thot d pain was an optical illusion idecided 4 new beginig.... a fresh start.... i thot f ma life wdout hatred without d green monster f jelousy n wdout all d sobs n cries..... it seemed beautiful..n nw m jst making ths thot f mine come 2 reality.... 2day after so many days of suffering i feel happy.... i feel free... i feel nice .. i feel d purity... n i feel 2 end ths blog ..... bohot dimag chat lia.... sorry 4 d grammatical n spelling n... whchevr errors u find.... coz i m jst like dat.. full of errors yet beatiful.... though not so pretty... nw m finishd off wd ma blog n... jst 4gt 2 mention ma sweet frn sarthak who askd me 2 write d blog long ago.... i jst wana say a thanks...... take care n god bless all...(me 2.)
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ι'ℓℓ вє яιgнт тнєяє ωαιтιηg ƒσя υ

before u start off wid this one...read the last portion of "whenevr i"....dere u will gt to knw y i have postd this blog again,aftr deletng once...   these two are connected.... 

In this early morning time....i've listnd to 3 bck to back hit soft..romantic songs... the 3rd one-"i'll be right there waiting for u" is onnn!!   the mood has been changd... my thoughts flying high!!  lukin for someone somewhere... for whom i am still waiting.our life is so busy....all the time we hav somthing or the other to do!!  at present our task is to study....n keep studyn!!  aftr xams...entrance xams...college...again xams..ughhhh!!!! do we get time to find our mate or...thngs will settle as the time passes????!!!I sometimes feel the need of this som1 special wn i see my bro n his "bandi". they get along so well.. make a sweet couple.. n i can jst luk at them & thnk how wud i feel being wid my 1, though i hve tried findin my one.My frnd says that i did a big thng even to xpress my feelings to 16th aug., no matter what were the consequences. But those "guts" n all dosnt exist nw. I may have forgottn her..&...watever happnd..bt how can i remove those life long wounds??!! i mean..i tried findin one..bt nw..i cant..impossible!! i ve gvn up!! whethr i like sombody or not!! its very difficult..rather impossible for me to xpress..because i fear that whatver happnd last time..will be repeatd.I fear to lose another frnd..another mate..  & the drama may begin again....  Before i let my heart takovr my brain, i stop myslf to progress furthr  jst cuz of that fear.I hate her the most for this. That confidnce..doesnt exist anymore just because of the fear of losing another one again & then goin through anothr drama. i knw its nt neccessary that its goin to happn the same again..bt  no!! i cant  .....i dunn have anymore guts.So m waitin..for som1 to come...m right here waitng for u...

 so...u must have com to knw that y i wrote this blog,,, because of my inability to.......                        leave it!!!!         bt soon....i will tell u more about it ...here nly

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Ah!! It has been so long…..I missed writing blogs fr such a long time!! Bt finally I’ve got time to penn dwn my thoughts, xpress something!!!...uhmmmm.. though no body cares!!!..  cuz I have always been doin some bakwas or sayin something irrelevant all the time.  I knw all this abt myslf bt still try to remain “professor looney”.

   My today’s or rather tonite’s bakwas is abt my evergreen “chapad chapad”. No. 1- my frnds are fed up of me that  I never keep secrets n kahin na kahin muh phad kea a hi jata hun!!  Kya karun.. mere paet me kch baat bachti hi nai!!!    Bt in sab se itni galiyan sunne ke bad  I’ve managed to keep some secrets within myslf!!  Atlast!!

No.2- ufff!!!! I’m irritated by this prob of mine which is that I talk a lot…or speak a lot!!  When I start on!!....the distance goes miles… keep on chattering till I realize that whatetver I have said… is jst a waste!!! Waste of time&energy. I feel really bad whn I gt to knw that I’ve eaten up so much of other prson’s brain, who has been continusly listinin to me silently, in hope that I wud soon stop. I can imagine…scratchin head wud give them more pleasure than listnin to me. My this bad habit has also landed me into many troubles.   This is what today happened!!

My frnd calld me up. & wn I began!!! Uhhhh!!!! Sara dimag chat gya!!! Instead of taking some instructions n some help(whch I despiratly needed), I began to give lecture.Even I myslf startd givin the caller some instructions..uh!!!!! I’m such a mad guy!!!   Wo to later i realised ki main kya kuch faltu ka bole ja raha hun..!!!! godd!!! I feel so bad!!! I’m srry if u r reading dis.        Dunno ye chapad chapad krne ki adat mjhe lagi kaha se!!?????????      koi to ye adat chutwao meri!!!........

Hence today I’ve made a promise that I’ll try to speak less!! This blog willl stop me givin lectures….. startin my bkwas si chapad chapad again!!!     Godd!! Hlp me bt I need to improve in this!!!     Tabhi mene comparatively chota blog likha he(I guess yes!!)

ωнєηєνєя ι……..

Whenever I see u,

I can’t move my eyes of u.

Whenever I hear u,

I always try to find where u are.

Whenever I think of u,

I forget all my tensions.

Whenever I am around u,

I try to act different so that I catch ur attention.

Whenever I touch u,

I could feel all your senses.

Whenever I talk to u,

I want to do so for the whole day.

Whenever I miss u,

I just see a pic of urs.

Whenever I’m with u,

I see to it that u are comfortable with me.

Whenever I talk about u,

The soft corner of my heart beats very softly.

Whenever I pray for u,

Instead, I start praying for both of us.

Whenever I dream about u,

I always find both of us together.

Whenever I draw a sketch of urs,

I end up making the shape of my heart.

Whenever I have said something about u,

It has always come from the core of my heart.

Whenever I am asked about u,

A moment of silence draws everytime.

Whenever I hear about u,

I always regret why couldn’t I say the same.

Whenever I’m angry,

I think of u to control myself.

Whenever I’m emotional,

Well, usually its because of u only.

Whenever I look at ur snaps,

I wish u could be mine.

&...when i wrote dis poem....

it wasnt 16 august,who was in my mind, it was sombody else.

in this time of confessions, i thought i may mak 1.  actually i was thinkin bout sombody else wn i wrote it, & as it is likd by  my pals....i have to confess that it wasnt 16 august.. bt somone else. I wrote her name so that no body could thnk  beyond her. at that time, she was the hot topic, so by the time u would have reachd the end, u must have thought abt her only... bt no..it wasnt her... i shared this to no body... jst cuz of the fear..... uhmmm... if u have read the blog "i'll be right there waiting for u", whch i deleted after 2 days, u may know about wch fear m talkin abt. i was tellin this thng at dat time nly...  bt... i couldnt...dunno y....infavt deletd the blog also.

bt nw m posting that blog again.. u may get to know abt that fear...  n then.. uhmmm i wud really like to see ur comment.

n stop scratching ur head dat who she is,,,,, cuz she is beyond ur thoughtssss.......she is.....________      

 guess,,,?!!!??!!

 

ιт ωαѕ ѕυ¢н α ∂αу!!!!

Well, it was a day of mostly ups .... bt a drastic downS as well!!!!

i'm too happy .... today ...was my last preboard ... though i knw i have to gv 1~2 re's(bt they are  in a 2 weeks time) ....  den we all had our felicitation cermony from the school ... evrybody got a momento & Character Certtificate .... hmmm... well, it was nice to listen 5~6 gud things about myself after so long ... i could see my pals clappin wen i recievd the honour frm the principal ... fr mee dat was more than anything else ..... at that moment, i felt as if YES, i'm also recognizable in this huge crowd(excpt my close frnds) !!!!

hmmm...lets move on~ den we had Scribblin day... & it was awesom   everybody had somthin to say...sometihn to xpress ... somethin to write ... my shirt is also full of msgs lik evrybdy's 

& most importantly........ theres a wish frm "16 august" on my shirt ...yes...  i have read her msg evry tim i luk at my shirt .... its such a thing  ..... I thnk i can share it wid u ...so...She has said "I know, you are a good person by heart, and you'll always be. Keep smilin...luv '16 august' "   Man... u won't get hw was i feelin wen she wrote all dis at my back side ..... all those memories started to turn my mind on.. bt i luk forward to continue dis...i mean frndshp atleast       & earlier i wrote almost a paragraph on her shirt....bt the only thing i remeber which i wote is "16 August" in Big Letters .... let her start the guessin work of her relation wid dis date.   & again i wud lik to mention akhil here, he did it again!!! its cuz of himonly dat it all happnd...thnxs dude.

 U mst have undrstud ... hw much happy i was ...before goin to my tution(directly frm the skl) . there, i got 2 knw that my sir will be late n fr the time being...the reciptionist gave us all a test.OK! Fine...wats after that?....wen he gave me the que. sheet.... maine uske muh pe wo question paper hi pahd dia....heeeee heeee....  usko gussa aya....usne institution ke head ko bulaya....n mujhe bahar bitha dia till my sir arrived..... den...mere sir aaye n the head told him furuiously that.."ye ladka mujhe ab dubara is tution me nai dikhna chahiye" n mjhe ghar wapis bhej dia..... i was so scared by the way he said n my teacher also agreed to him .  ghar aate hi i askd my frnds...asked for idea... bt later it all settled down .....lekin meri itni buri tarah fatti thi us time      & the day is ending hapily  ..i rememberd wat all had happnd... n most of the time i cud jst see an image of a corner of my shirt's bak side.....in one soft corner of my heart