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Today i wanna share wid u a very imp phase of my life....love....likin...etc etc. srry bt i cnnt nam anybody in dis blog or things will go worse..
dere is a grl whum i liked..so mch dat i was really into her completly....culdn't sleep at nites...culdn't eat prprly....fell in fever wenever thought abt her....n u knw .i kept a fast of ''karva chauth fast till 4.30 p.m.''jst imagine ..i was dedicated so mch....despirately wanted to talk to her....n so widout wastin time xpressd my feelins to her....on 17th september..i stll rembr dose memorable dates of my life
she is a topper n attractive too as i lost my senses also along wid twenties and thirtees lik mee.....u knw at dat time i felt she is jst perfect...nthns bad in her...she is dis ...she is dat...& bla bla i mean har jagah i used to appreciate her....did evrywrk fr her..as if i was a slave...i dnt feel embarressed in sayin all dis cuz dis is wat love is all about...wen it'll happen to u to the xtnt i have xperienced.u'll also behave lik da same
i wasn't in my senses at that period of tim completely....i gifted her 2-3 chocolates also at our frst''meetin'' ..jst imagine....she said she will seee to it n needed som tim...
i kept quiet fr som days as our exams were jst approachin...didn't wanted to disturb her in her studies...jst see..i gave so mch imp. to myslf dat thought she will get affectd by this all...ha ha ..wasn't i mad?~ ~
aftr xams we met again...u can say scnd''meetin''...n gav her a letter dat xpressed all my fellins..she den too wanted tim...i gave her
in dat period of tim..i dicussed da matter wid som of my frnds....n tuk dere advice.. u knw wat..i cam to knw dat she was already engaged wid sombody..n beleive mee i told my frnds dat dat''sombody'' is a dear frnd of her n nt involved in a relationshp wid her.....
den i nticed da thngs told by my frnds were gettin rite in one or da other way....n hold my breath...controlled my slf..n said if somthn is dere...b/w the two ..let it be y do i interfare...n if anythin is nt dere den no worries ...i'll gt out of it…..out of my fever….my likin.& love
i stopped talkin to dat grl...jst cuz i had to forgt her...forgt wat i thought abt her..n see her jst as my true frnd n believe mee ..dat workd man!..i was out of my fever
& den i thought dat nw i shud tak to her....n clear the misundrstandin...dat was da last day bfor our wntr holdidays began
bt dere all the drama began...whch continues till nw....
i tld her evrythin...she defended herslf..blamed mee..i heard her part..she said she didn't like mee in any sense...

den y da hell she didn't tell mee earlier....wen i asked hundred times..abt dis...

den she started cryin fr i was thnkin dat knd of crap...her relation ship wid dat "somebody"

all da holidays...were very diff. fr mee to live..i thought dat y did i thnk abt such crap n etc. etc...dat made her cry
bt wo kehte hain na ''magarmach ke aansoo'' it was dat only...i feel so frustated n irritatd by wat she did...i mean she played wid mee..my feelins...believe me or not..its on ur part..bt actually she was engaged wid dat 'sombody'… frm a long tim &

.den too earlier she tld me dat she wanted time....ah commo'n yaar y didn't she tell me earlier dat she cnnot thnk abt mee

she xpressed in frnt of evrybody as if dere was nthin b/w dem....bt she cant lie to her own slf..her soul...she can be a diff. prson in frnt of the wrld.bt she herslf knw dat dere was somthin goin b/w dem......nw frm where i got to knw all this abt her..plss dun ask me...bt belive me its all true
she blamed me dat i spread da news abt her relationshp everywhere....wch i didn't..every body already thought that they r engaged..so wat was the need fr me to tell anyone...remembr..i told earlier dat i told my frnds dat theres nthn b/w them! ha h ah ha nw i really laugh at dat...laugh at myslf
we fought...her sister fought on her behalf...wid mee...i was alone...bas i knew one thng dat i havnt don any thng wrong..n stood up wid dat thng only….bt I still wonder ki wat mistak i did!!!
was likin her a mistak
or xpressin my feelin
did i do anythng wrong by tellin my frnds dat she wasn't engaged wid anybody wen she really was
or wen i didn't talk to her fr a time being.....dat was wrong?
one thng i can say is dat her sis is a very knd person..very caretakin....i have to appreciate dat..she stick wid her sis..fought wid mee.. n nw i dunno y bt talks to mee...i still wonder hw did this chng happnd
bt the main party is still rude..n i also don wanna talk to her.
BT U KNW ONE THNG

I lost somone who never loved me & She lost somone who really loved her.
gudbye.....luv to see ur commnts especially on this topic