before u start off wid this one...read the last portion of "whenevr i"....dere u will gt to knw y i have postd this blog again,aftr deletng once... these two are connected....
In this early morning time....i've listnd to 3 bck to back hit soft..romantic songs... the 3rd one-"i'll be right there waiting for u" is onnn!! the mood has been changd... my thoughts flying high!! lukin for someone somewhere... for whom i am still waiting.our life is so busy....all the time we hav somthing or the other to do!! at present our task is to study....n keep studyn!! aftr xams...entrance xams...college...again xams..ughhhh!!!! do we get time to find our mate or...thngs will settle as the time passes????!!!I sometimes feel the need of this som1 special wn i see my bro n his "bandi". they get along so well.. make a sweet couple.. n i can jst luk at them & thnk how wud i feel being wid my 1, though i hve tried findin my one.My frnd says that i did a big thng even to xpress my feelings to 16th aug., no matter what were the consequences. But those "guts" n all dosnt exist nw. I may have forgottn her..&...watever happnd..bt how can i remove those life long wounds??!! i mean..i tried findin one..bt nw..i cant..impossible!! i ve gvn up!! whethr i like sombody or not!! its very difficult..rather impossible for me to xpress..because i fear that whatver happnd last time..will be repeatd.I fear to lose another frnd..another mate.. & the drama may begin again.... Before i let my heart takovr my brain, i stop myslf to progress furthr jst cuz of that fear.I hate her the most for this. That confidnce..doesnt exist anymore just because of the fear of losing another one again & then goin through anothr drama. i knw its nt neccessary that its goin to happn the same again..bt no!! i cant .....i dunn have anymore guts.So m waitin..for som1 to come...m right here waitng for u...
6 comments:
to mohit, nw u knw y i quoted, my"reverse" side... cuz i was fed up.... of.... u knw..
comment waiting...
tu budhu hai.dnt get disheartend n as anil kapoor says.. b positve... u knw u hav frnz wat else u need n.....nif u thnk abt a mate thn wana tell u smthn jb hona hoga ho jaega... jitna b tu dar ra h na sb bekar h..... if smbdy cms in ur lyf n u love dat 1 dearly to confindece kya cofidence ki chachi b aa jaegi......
he he.... tu hi jake baat kar lio!! ahkr kaar phr tu kab kaam aaegi???
now !! i want to tell you somthing,
i want to qoute it like
"it was your first experience with
a ,..." i realy dont wanna use bad words........
if i hurt your feelings ... sorry about that but surely u are realy very sensitive ....and i dont think she was the right one for you ,,,,
you just initiated your one of the human feelings "LOVE" ....
surely god had thought of someone special for you ... and it was just the rehearsal of the next big event ......
thnxs bagga!!! true picture!!
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